high school trauma

i have never been into a formal 'boy-girl relationship' before.. but i sure know how it feels to be emotionally attached to someone special..

way back three years ago, i fell in love with a guy who seemed to be nice and 'loyal'.. too bad he's a year older than me so he had to go to college first. about a month after he got admitted at the university he was applying, he found his new Love affair with a girl named 'boss'.. bottomline, he broke up with me -though we weren't having any formal relationship at that time.

i felt anger, of course. i was mad that i want to take revenge.. only then i learned that if a guy does nice things for you, it's NEVER a guarantee that he'll be willing to stick around you forever.. cause you know what, bitterly, forever is a LIE.

now that i am seventeen and, should i say, a lil bit wiser than before, i can handle things with men in a more professional way.. :D

still, i never engaged in any formal relationships with men yet.. well it doesn't mean i didn't liked any.. though i really do. i really liked a lot of 'em.. it's just that i was way too hurt to trust all their fake promises...

power in a relationship lies with whoever cares less.. (from a movie i just watched earlier..) but you see, power means happiness right? so happiness can only be seen when we care more than less...


and so, to end this... i want to stress out something.. in love, there's no such thing as taking.. it's always about giving.. so if you think that the person you love can't love you back as what you deserve, don't just stop there.. Love 'em.. like you're not expecting anything in return. :D

just a character

I always love magics and fairytales.. I used to dream of being a princess awaiting for her prince charming who's on his way to save her all the time.

Like every girl I have known in town, I also fall in love with a person who is mainly, just a character himself. He was an heir of a throne that was dreamt by most people. He is tall, handsome (super!), intelligent (smart), rich, and a respected one.

When he falls for a girl, he would surely make her feel true love from him.. He would even turn his back on the throne and on the family just to be with his true love.

He never chooses the prettiest, the smartest, and the richest. In fact, he chose the opposite. He never looks at the outside. He believes that what's at the inside is a lot lot more important.

He wants to prove to his friends that he is indeed a real man... a man who is dignified enough to withstand all trials for the girl he loves... even if it may cost his very own life.

He would prefer to have a ribcage broken than her girl's finger be hurt by anyone. And when he falls, he falls. No matter what.

Both friendship and love is important to him.

Despite his being serious and scary sometimes, his sense of humor won't be absent if situation needs. He is a kind of guy that even if he'll be having any brain problems, his heart won't be forgetful of the girl he loves...

...and he is very much appealing.


Despite his perfections, that i myself can surely affirm, there's still one thing that is a problem... and I believe it would remain as it is.


This guy, is out there somewhere... Somewhere in my mind.

like apples

Women are Like apples. The good ones are at the top. Men usually would settle for the fallen apples because they don't want to climb the tree and fall. Apples on top would envy the fallen apples because they're taken easily. But, the apples on top won't go down to their level. They'll patiently wait for the right man who'll patiently climb his way up to get them.

inlove with her

I fell inlove not with a guy but with a girl; not the love that you feel towards the opposite sex but towards a sister.

It all started exactly six months ago when we first had a dinner at that place. We love the food, the lights, the view from the top, the music, the too much noise during lunch time, the stillness during dinner time, the memories, etc.

We always meet their during lunch time every tuesday. That's our venue for T4T. When we had talks about personal stuffs, we fixed all things there... in that table with four seats across each other... at the end of the hallway in the second floor. Sometimes, i feel uplifted by just being there even if I'm alone.

I always dream of having a sister; either older or younger. But I didn't have. So, I always look at her as a sister of my own. That's whom I fell inlove with.