high school trauma

i have never been into a formal 'boy-girl relationship' before.. but i sure know how it feels to be emotionally attached to someone special..

way back three years ago, i fell in love with a guy who seemed to be nice and 'loyal'.. too bad he's a year older than me so he had to go to college first. about a month after he got admitted at the university he was applying, he found his new Love affair with a girl named 'boss'.. bottomline, he broke up with me -though we weren't having any formal relationship at that time.

i felt anger, of course. i was mad that i want to take revenge.. only then i learned that if a guy does nice things for you, it's NEVER a guarantee that he'll be willing to stick around you forever.. cause you know what, bitterly, forever is a LIE.

now that i am seventeen and, should i say, a lil bit wiser than before, i can handle things with men in a more professional way.. :D

still, i never engaged in any formal relationships with men yet.. well it doesn't mean i didn't liked any.. though i really do. i really liked a lot of 'em.. it's just that i was way too hurt to trust all their fake promises...

power in a relationship lies with whoever cares less.. (from a movie i just watched earlier..) but you see, power means happiness right? so happiness can only be seen when we care more than less...


and so, to end this... i want to stress out something.. in love, there's no such thing as taking.. it's always about giving.. so if you think that the person you love can't love you back as what you deserve, don't just stop there.. Love 'em.. like you're not expecting anything in return. :D