i am about to burst in anger when i remembered how GOD loved me and how long His patience for me.

reasons why I don't like to marry someone like my oppa.

i swear i'm not gonna marry someone like my dad. To list FEW of the reasons why i dislike someone who thinks like him are:

-he doesn't give importance on anyone's birthday, even his only girl's debut.
-he yells like hell in front of you for NO REASON!
-he's moody
-he never loved me like his own.
-he's the type of dad who wants his baby girl to marry a rich old dying american for himself
-he loves to hurt you
-when he gives you a little amount, it seems that have been in debted to him all your life
-he'd always make me feel as if I'm not of his own.
-he suspects you for doing bad things
-he assumes you keep dirty secrets with you even if you have none.
-he hates you all the time
-he's BASTOS in talking.
-he has nothing to give you but sorrows.
-he forgets important dates
-he doesn't know how old we are
-he ruins special occasions like Christmas and New Years
-he can easily hurt our feelings
-and many more

death note

How I wish I'd just die soon to stop things from getting worse. I feel that it would be better if I'd just die and leave home to give my family peace, joy, happiness, and stress-free life. I thought of killing myself, but then, it'd give them burden of burying me since it's getting really expensive to bury a dead person, not counting the stress of staying up late during burials. So, I thought of a stress free death. I think it doesn't have to be death, as in, end of a life, right? As long as you're gone out of their sight, you'll be considered dead. I was planning where I can go. Perhaps I should find my real family. It's quite burdensome for them to send me to college just because they act as my parents, when in fact they aren't.. Don't worry, someday, I am going outta here. And I'll stay somewhere FAR.

crazy

mianhamnida 미안해

i don't want to ruin your summer.. that's why i really can't say this in facebook nor in person. But i still believe that if I'd keep things hidden long enough, you'd be hurt more. So, for a coward like me, I'd say it here.. in hopes that you can read this someday, sometime. I'd like you to stop calling me in special names like you do before. Please stop giving special attention to me and treat me like how you do others. I know it's not easy to give me what I want but it's what I really want and need. and i believe, it's also what you want and need in the future.. Let's just be friends and let's wait for God to work on our individual lives. I hate to say this to you but it's the truth you gotta face, It's over--all that has been between us--it's over. God Bless us.