hidden desires

when i was little, my mom wants me to be a lawyer.. until i reached college, most of my decisions were from her.. it has been a frustration on her part that despite the fact that she wants to be an atty, she ended up being an engr..
i took up poli sci because of two reasons.. it's what mom says that's best for me and it's what i got for taking UPCAT. No one knows what I really like.. and even if they knew, they'd still think that poli sci would be much much better..
i always wanted to be an international flight stewardess.. i also dreamt of becoming a fashion designer.. that's the simple part of me.. But my mom thinks that it'd be better if i set my eyes on higher goals..
but now, i think it's different. i was thinking maybe i could just give up everything i have and take a plane ride to a very very far country where i can start a life following my heart. :) i am thinking of the possibility of giving up her dream and then going after mine.
maybe, if i am plucky enough, i would run away towards my goals.. but in reality, i am big coward..
Coward enough to decide for myself, fearing that i may be wrong..