rushing down towards LOVE

HAVE YOU EVER MET A GIRL WHO DREAMS EVERY SINGLE SECOND OF HER LIFE MEETING HER PRINCE CHARMING?

i guess, that's me. I always dream of finding true love, as soon as possible. I envy the girls who were already settled with their princes. when i was little, i use to admire different men and then i use to be married with each of them in my dreams.

most of the time, i dream of my very own fairytale. I dream of becoming an heir to a throne which i ust knew when i turned 18. i also dream of becoming miserable all my life and finding my prince charming who seems to be a scion to a crown that would save me from the missery i were in. sometimes, i dream of finding true love by walking along the streets and accidentally bumping on to someone who'll be my groom for the next 4 hours.

i have a lot of 'perfect' plots for my own love story. i always plan things out, on my own... trusting my own will and understanding.

i am tired of trusting someone to do it for me.. tire dof waiting for that day to arrive. sometimes, or should i say, most of the time, i rush down to Love... sometimes, i doubt if love can really find me.. and i sometimes want to just get out and find love itself.


they say, people who finds love from relationships were mostly deserted by family members. But i was born in a loving family.. and i have good friends, or a friend, at least.

i just don't understand why i love to rush down on love.. hmm..


i dunno what to do.. i need guidance from above.

i am praying that He'll send me the HOLY SPIRIT to guide my wandering heart. :)

daz

spongeBob.. that's who he is. We see everyday at school-exept for wednesdays.. He is a year older than me and i am not so sure if he is a psych, com sci, or a mngt stude.. it's a lil bit confusing, really. All i know is that he's attached to spongebob.

my friends and i use to call him 'daz'. haha.. because of the word sponge. I guess, that term of endearment has really became pop among my buddies.

We share same faith. :) He has a good posture and He's kind'a cute.. -for me.

too bad, i am not so sure if he even knows my name. :( we're not friends.

hidden desires

when i was little, my mom wants me to be a lawyer.. until i reached college, most of my decisions were from her.. it has been a frustration on her part that despite the fact that she wants to be an atty, she ended up being an engr..
i took up poli sci because of two reasons.. it's what mom says that's best for me and it's what i got for taking UPCAT. No one knows what I really like.. and even if they knew, they'd still think that poli sci would be much much better..
i always wanted to be an international flight stewardess.. i also dreamt of becoming a fashion designer.. that's the simple part of me.. But my mom thinks that it'd be better if i set my eyes on higher goals..
but now, i think it's different. i was thinking maybe i could just give up everything i have and take a plane ride to a very very far country where i can start a life following my heart. :) i am thinking of the possibility of giving up her dream and then going after mine.
maybe, if i am plucky enough, i would run away towards my goals.. but in reality, i am big coward..
Coward enough to decide for myself, fearing that i may be wrong..