rushing down towards LOVE

HAVE YOU EVER MET A GIRL WHO DREAMS EVERY SINGLE SECOND OF HER LIFE MEETING HER PRINCE CHARMING?

i guess, that's me. I always dream of finding true love, as soon as possible. I envy the girls who were already settled with their princes. when i was little, i use to admire different men and then i use to be married with each of them in my dreams.

most of the time, i dream of my very own fairytale. I dream of becoming an heir to a throne which i ust knew when i turned 18. i also dream of becoming miserable all my life and finding my prince charming who seems to be a scion to a crown that would save me from the missery i were in. sometimes, i dream of finding true love by walking along the streets and accidentally bumping on to someone who'll be my groom for the next 4 hours.

i have a lot of 'perfect' plots for my own love story. i always plan things out, on my own... trusting my own will and understanding.

i am tired of trusting someone to do it for me.. tire dof waiting for that day to arrive. sometimes, or should i say, most of the time, i rush down to Love... sometimes, i doubt if love can really find me.. and i sometimes want to just get out and find love itself.


they say, people who finds love from relationships were mostly deserted by family members. But i was born in a loving family.. and i have good friends, or a friend, at least.

i just don't understand why i love to rush down on love.. hmm..


i dunno what to do.. i need guidance from above.

i am praying that He'll send me the HOLY SPIRIT to guide my wandering heart. :)